Det at turde vælge sig selv…selv nå

Det at turde vælge sig selv…selv når hjertet hvisker noget andet.

Har du nogenside stået ved en skillevej i livet, hvor dit hjerte ønskede at lede dig i retning af noget ganske særligt som fyldte så meget inden i dig at det næsten ikke var til at bære - en særlig person som pludselig havde krydset din vej, men samtidigt med det vidste en anden del af dig at du var nødt til kun at vælge dig selv, lige nu i dette øjeblik?

Det har jeg, der står jeg lige lige nu, ved denne skillevej - mellem to fantastiske muligheder som begge leder mig til et sted hvor et lille frø inden i mig kan vokse og gro. Jeg tog en stor beslutning for mig for ganske kort tid siden om at ligge livet om, ligge fortiden og gamle mønstre bag mig, finde en helt blank side frem og begynde at skrive et nyt og ganske særligt kapitel i mit liv - det skal hedde;

At vælge mig selv til i mit liv.

Jeg har længe tænkt på at rejse væk i længere tid, udforske verden og suge alle de vidunderlige indtryk til mig som verden har at byde på. Første gang var jeg kun omkring 19 og havde lige endt et forhold, en meget smertefuld tid fyldt med skyldfølelse, svigt og frustration. Jeg sad meget og var blot i min egen verden da lysten til at rejse dukkede op, når jeg ser tilbage i dag var dette nok mest af alt et udtryk for at stikke af, en flugt fra min virkelighed og følelserne inden i mig, som gjorde ondt. Jeg havde bestilt alt muligt materiale og destinationen var sat mod Australien. Jeg ville finde et arbejde dernede og tjene penge til dagen og vejen som tiden gik. Jeg gjorde mig mange overvejelser og en stor del af mig var klar på at booke billetten og blot “flyve afsted” mod det ukendte, en anden del af mig var dog ganske anderledes, her gemte sig frygt og angst for alt det uvisse og mit dårlige selvværd kom virkelig til udtryk og endte også med at lade denne rejse glide ud i sandet, som blot endnu en drøm der aldrig blev til virkelighed.

Mange gange efter denne drømte jeg om rejser, eksotiske steder og muligheden for en kæmpe oplevelse og måske endda et nyt liv et nyt sted, disse blev dog også altid blot ved dagdrømmene og til korte charter ferier med familie og venner - rejser jeg kunne overskue og hvor det ikke indgik en masse uvisse faktorer som kunne få min angst gejlet op. Var det ikke angsten som kom i vejen, så fandt jeg ganske enkelt bare en anden undskyldning jeg kunne klynge mig fast til, det kunne være en kæreste, et arbejde, en uddannelse eller på anden måde noget som jeg kunne bruge til at fortælle mig selv at lige nu, nok ikke var det rigtige tidspunkt og jeg var “nødt” til at udskyde drømmen atter engang.

Snart 12 år senere efter mange turbulente år med forliste forhold, arbejde med mig selv, tab af flere som stod mig meget nært og en helt masse andre følelses mæssige oplevelser og udfordringer på godt og ondt, sad jeg nu for mig selv i julen 2014 hos familien, endnu et forhold var netop endt efter 12 mdr og jeg sad med et inderligt ønske om at mit liv nu skulle blive anderledes fra den dag af! Ikke flere negative tanker om mig selv, ikke mere drama, ikke mere smerte, ikke flere forhold hvor jeg valgte mig selv fra for at vælge en anden til, nu ville jeg ikke skabe udfordringer for mig selv mere, men i stedet muligheder, jeg ville give mig selv plads til at kunne blomstre og følge mit hjerte - nu var min tid kommet! Stemmen i mit indre var i mange år var blevet forsømt og overhørt, i stedet var alle andres behov blevet hørt og imødekommet - andre havde altid været vigtigere end mig selv, en ting jeg har fået med i bagagen fra min barndom og mine forældres handlinger og måden de levede deres liv på. Men nu havde jeg altså fået nok af min egen adfærd og taget skeen i den anden hånd.

Denne gang mærkedes også hurtigt ganske anderledes, denne gang kunne jeg mærke i hele min krop at denne beslutning manifesterede sig - jeg havde nu virkeligt for første gang i livet valgte mig selv til i mit eget liv - og det føltes skønt! En beslutning var taget og slået fast med 7 tommer søm, en ny begyndelse ventede mig lige om hjørnet og mit liv ville fra nu af blive ganske anderledes vidste jeg. Jeg mærkede i mig selv dag for dag hvordan styrken, viljen, selvværdet og ikke mindst selvtilliden inden i mig voksede gevaldigt i takt med at jeg bekræftede mig selv mere og mere i at dette var den helt rigtige beslutning for mig. Nu var det virkeligt, nu skulle jeg på MIN rejse, tiden var nu og tidspunktet var det helt rigtige. Alt tvivl blev manet til jorden og udskiftet med tro, håb og en gennemslående viljestyrke som blomstrede i mit indre.

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ผลลัพธ์ (อังกฤษ) 1:

The daring to choose itself ... even when the heart whispers something else.Have you ever been standing at a crossroads in life where your heart desired to lead you in the direction of something special that filled so much inside you that it almost wasn't to wear-a special person who suddenly had crossed your path, but while it did another part of you that you had to only choose yourself, right now at this very moment?I have, it says I'm just right now, at this juncture-between two fantastic opportunities both of which leads me to a place where a small seed inside me can grow and grow. I took a big decision for me for quite a short time ago to Sun life on deck the past and old patterns behind me, find a completely blank page and start to write a new and very special chapter in my life-it should be called;To select myself to in my life.I have long thought of travelling away for a longer period of time, explore the world and soak up all the wonderful impression to me as the world has to offer. The first time I was only about 19 and had just ended a relationship, a very painful time filled with feelings of guilt, failure and frustration. I sat much and was just in my own world as the desire to travel showed up, when I look back in the day this was probably most of all an expression of sticking by, an escape from my reality and the feelings inside me, which ached. I had ordered all possible material and the destination was set against Australia. I would find a job down there and earn money for the day and the road as time went on. I did me many considerations and a big part of me was ready to book the ticket and just "fly off" towards the unknown, another part of me was, however, quite different, here hid fear and anxiety for all the dark and my bad self esteem came really to expression and ended up also with to let this travel slide out in the sand, as just another dream that never became reality.Many times after that I dreamed about travel, exotic places and the possibility of a huge experience and maybe even a new life to a new location, these were, however, also always just by dagdrømmene and to the short charter vacations with family and friends-travel I could foresee and where it is not included a lot of uncertain factors which could get my anxiety gejlet up. It wasn't fear that got in the wayso I found quite simply just another excuse I could cluster me firmly to, it could be a girlfriend, a job, an education, or otherwise something that I could use to tell myself that right now, probably was not the right time and I was "forced" to defer the dream once again.Soon 12 years later after many turbulent years of wrecked relationship, work with myself, the loss of several who stood me very closely and a whole lot of other emotional health experiences and challenges on good and evil, I sat now for myself at Christmas with family, yet a relationship 2014 was just finishing after 12 months and I sat with a fervently desire that my life now is supposed to be different from the day of! No more negative thoughts about myself, no more drama, no more pain, no more relationship where I chose myself from to select another to, now I wouldn't create challenges for myself anymore but instead opportunities, I would give myself the space to be able to flourish and follow my heart-now was my time has come! The voice in my mind was for many years had been neglected and ignored, instead had all been heard and responded to the needs of others-others had always been more important than myself, one thing I've got in the baggage from my childhood and my parents ' actions and the way they lived their lives on. But now I had so had enough of my own behaviour and taken the spoon in the other hand.This time mærkedes also quickly quite differently, this time I could feel in my whole body to this decision manifested itself-I had now truly, for the first time in life chosen myself in my own life-and it felt great! A decision was taken and beaten fast with 7 inch nail, a new beginning awaited me just around the corner and my life would be quite different, from now on I knew. I noticed in myself day by day how the strength, determination, self esteem and not least confidence within me grew tremendously as I confirmed myself more and more in that this was the right decision for me. Now it was real, now should I on my journey, the time was now, and the time was right. All doubt was manet to the ground and replaced with faith, hope, and a through striking willpower which flourished in my home.To be continued ...

ผลลัพธ์ (อังกฤษ) 2:

The daring to choose themselves ... even when the heart whispers something else. Have you ever been at a crossroads in life where your heart wanted to point you in the direction of something special that filled so much inside of you that it almost was not wearing - a special person who suddenly had crossed your path, but at the same time it knew another part of you that you had to select only yourself, right now in this moment? I have that I stand right now , at this juncture - between two wonderful opportunities both leads me to a place where a small seed inside me can grow and grow. I took a big decision for me for a very short time ago to be life on, lie the past and old patterns behind me find a completely blank page forward and begin to write a new and very special chapter in my life - it should be called; Choosing myself in my life. I have long thought that travel away for a long time, explore the world and suck all the wonderful impression to me that the world has to offer. The first time I was only about 19 ​​and had just ended a relationship, a very painful time filled with guilt, failure and frustration. I sat much and was just in my own world when the desire to travel appeared, when I look back today, this was enough most of all an expression to escape, an escape from my reality and emotions within me, as did evil. I had ordered all possible material and the destination was set against Australia. I would find a job down there and earn money for a living as time went on. I had many ideas and a big part of me was ready to book the ticket and just "fly off" against the unknown, another part of me was, however, quite different, here hiding fear and anxiety for all the vagueness and my bad self-esteem really came to terms and also ended up let this journey slip out of the sand, as just another dream that never came true. Many times after that I dreamed about, exotic locations and the possibility of a huge experience and maybe even a new life a new place, these were also always just by daydreams and for short charter holidays with family and friends - traveling I could grasp and where not included a lot of uncertain factors that might make my anxiety gejlet up. Was not it the fear that got in the way, so I found simply just another excuse I could clinging to, it could be a girlfriend, a job, training or otherwise something that I could use to tell myself that right now, probably was not the right time and I was "need" to postpone the dream once again. Soon 12 years later after many turbulent years of failed relationships, work on myself, the loss of several who stood me very closely and quite lot of other emotional experiences and challenges for better or worse, I sat now for myself at Christmas 2014 with the family, another relative had just ended after 12 months and I sat with a deep desire that my life now would be different from the day of! No more negative thoughts about myself, no more drama, no more pain, no more relationship where I chose myself off to choose someone else, now would not I create challenges for myself anymore, but rather opportunities, I would give myself space to thrive and to follow my heart - now my time has come! The voice in my mind for many years had been neglected and ignored, instead, all the needs of others were consulted and accepted - others had always been more important than myself, a thing I have got the baggage from my childhood and my parents' actions and the way they lived their lives. But now I had all had enough of my own behavior and take the spoon in the other hand. This time was labeled too quickly quite different, this time I could feel in my whole body to this decision manifested itself - I had now truly for the first time in life chose myself in my own life - and it felt great! A decision was taken and stated with 7 inch nails, a new beginning waiting for me around the corner and my life would henceforth be quite different, I knew. I felt in myself every day how the strength, determination, self-esteem and not least the confidence in me grew tremendously as I confirmed myself more and more in that this was the right decision for me. Now it was real, now I MIN travel, the time was now and the time was right. All doubts were dispelled and replaced with faith, hope, and through striking willpower that flourished within me. Continued ...

ผลลัพธ์ (อังกฤษ) 3:

The courage to choose themselves ... even when the heart whisper something else.

Have you ever.. stood at a crossroads in life when your heart wanted to lead you in the direction of something quite special as filled so much in you that it almost was not to carry - a special person which suddenly had crossed your path,But at the same time with the knew a different part of you that you had to select only yourself, right now in this moment?

I have, which is where I am right now, at this juncture, between two great opportunities as both leads me to a place where a small seed within me to grow and grow. I took a major decision for me for a very short time ago to be life on,Be Past and old patterns behind me, find a completely blank page forward and start to write a new and very special chapter in my life - it should be called;

to choose myself in my life.

I have long been thought to travel away for a longer period of time, explore the world and suck all the wonderful impression to me that the world has to offer. First time I was only about 19 and had just ended a relationship,A very painful time filled with guilt, failure and frustration. I was very much and was just in my own world as desire to travel came up, when I look back in day this was probably the most of all the expression of the insert of an escape from my reality and emotions within me, which hurt. I had ordered all possible material and the destination was set against Australia.I would find a work there and earn money for the day and the road as time went. I went to many considerations and a large part of me was ready to book the ticket and just "Fly away" against the unknown, another part of me, however, were quite different,Here saved to anxiety and fear for all the unknown and my poor self-esteem was really to express and ended up also to let this trip slide out in the sand, which is only a dream that was never real.

many times after that I dreamed of travel, exotic locations and the possibility of a huge experience and perhaps even a new life a new site,However, these were also always just by dagdrømmene and for short charter vacations with family and friends - I am going to be able to understand and how it was not a lot of unknown factors which could get my fear gejlet. It was not fear that came in the way, so I was simply just another excuse i could cluster to me, it could be a girlfriend, a job,A training course or in any other way something which I could use to tell me even though that right now, enough was not the right time and i was "forced" to postpone the dream once again.

soon to be 12 years later, after many turbulent years with wrecked relationship, working with myself,Loss of more than one that was extremely close to me and a whole lot of other emotional tarnish experiences and challenges for good or for bad, i was now on my own in Christmas 2014 with the family, even a relationship that was ended after 12 months and I was sitting with a sincere desire to my life now would be different from the day of! No more negative thoughts about myself, no more drama, no more pain,No more conditions where I selected myself from to select a second, now I would not create challenges for me even more, but instead, I would give myself space to flourish and follow my heart - now was my time here! Voice in my home was for many years had been neglected and ignored,Instead, all others' needs have been heard and granted - other had always been more important than myself, one thing I have been in the luggage from my childhood and my parents' actions and the way they lived their lives. But now I had had enough of my own behavior and taken spoon in the other hand.

this time were also quickly quite different,This time I could feel in my entire body to this Decision manifested itself - I had now really for the first time in their lives selected myself to in my own life - and it felt great! A decision was taken on with 7 inch nails, a new beginning waiting me just around the corner and my life would have to be quite different I knew.I noticed in my own day to day how the strength, the will, morale and not at least his self-esteem within me grew dramatically in line with that I confirmed myself more and more in that this was the right decision for me. Now it was real, now I was on my trip, the time was now and the time when it was right. All doubts were dispelled once to the ground and replaced with faith,Hope and a gennemslående willpower that flourished in my indre.

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